.haven't said a word to me this evening.

i think i care more, like more, love more than you.

and that scares me.

though you're there, i feel alone, your presence isn't felt.

and it trips me out.

two insecurities.

one ball of confusion.

so i pretend that it's not as much as it feels to be.

then it all feels like a distant dream.

and i hate that it doesn't seem like it really happened.

then i feel alone again.

because i looked to my left and you're still not there.

you're hardly ever there.